Seeking solace...

Hi all,

It's 5 am in the morning and I have just finished my presentation slides for next Tuesday session.

The way I work is very much different from others. I can only focus on my work if there is no other distraction. That is why I prefer to start my work after 5 pm. My office mates will mostly be home, there will be no sound of mobile phone ringtones, no phonecalls on my mobile, and of course, the quietness of the office offers me the tranquility in doing my work. And I get things done too.

So when it comes to working on presentation slides, as per other works, I choose to do it late at night or early in the morning. Because after that I have to shift my attention to my dearie hubby (well, he has complained that he's a bit neglected with all the work I am focusing on), to the housework and the other social activities that I might be involved in.

Nevertheless, I am not in a habit to burn the midnight oil too often. It is not good for my complexion, it can causes breakouts, my eyebag and dark circle will show...at the end of the day I will look like hell. Which is not good for my job, because in my job I must show health and vitality as well as... yeah, beauty. Shallow, yes? :D

Coming back to the working in odd hours, I realized that during my school years, my study time also differs from others. While others made full use of their prep time in the evening and at night. I preferred to skip studying and read newspaper instead. At times I did annoy some of my classmates by distracting them with empty conversation. I just can't study. Seeing people study distract me from studying!

My studying hours are actually during the weekend, when the class was empty and everybody was watching TV back at their respective house lounges. There will be no other students in the school block, so that really gives me the ambiance that I seek to study. Other time would be Saturday evening, when everybody was out with their parents (yeah, my parents seldom came) I would seek refuge next to the school field and read my Chemistry book. Under one of the trees, with the wind blowing nicely and shielded from the sun ray, I was able to study peacefully. :)

And I am proud to say that without studying much during prep hours, I managed to get 6 aggregate... *wink wink*

So I guess my brain works a bit different from others. Not that I am saying I am gifted, but I seek solace in quiet places, where I can focus on the tasks in hand, and do my work well. People don't understand why I chose to stay back after office hours. Some perhaps cynically think that I want to show off my "hardworking-ness" to the big boss. For those who knew me back then in my previous office, staying back was something that we had to do. We had mountains of work to settle...and after-office hour was seriously the best time to start working on pricing, proposals, presentations...

However, my diligence does comes with a price. My dearie Amir has complained that I only see him awake for 2 hours. I know that something gotta give, but I hope that it's not my relationship that has to make way for work. But for someone who aims for perfection, I need my own time for work. I hope he understands. I really do.

Dah nak azan Subuh... signing off~!